I long for the nights

where I smell you

from beside me not

from your old t-shirts.


I long for the nights 

where I’m not in my bed

cuddling a pillow but

perhaps entangled with you instead.

once-upon-a-time

Glazed eyes, blank face, puncture wounds only visible to myself.

Empty features yet able to fill a room with a laugh. Imperfections,

you gave me them.

Insecurity, you caused it. Compliant with your every word.


But that smile of yours causes the pain you cause,

to fall apart in an earthquake of delight.

Your eyes whisper “I love you.”

Your mouth screams “You’re not enough.”

My heart rate slows again as the earthquake subsides.


I was once the girl who could not be tamed, once the free-spirit. 

Once-upon-a-time, I was the girl who could climb a 

mountain and write a song and dance until 

the sun was no longer visible.


She is not me anymore. I am not her.

Who am I?


I’m the girl you wanted me to be. Docile.

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